Tower of Drama

It was a delight to see her every time we meet. We often would gaze into each other eyes for hours on end wondering what each other was thinking but never speaking much at all. Some nights were filled with more passion as we simply made love under the moonlight. In those moments of togetherness, I often wondered if she held secrets her heart just couldn’t reveal but it was only a matter of time before they came to light.

It was winter a snowy day I’ll never forget. I was walking to see what I thought to be the love of my life, Ann. I wanted to surprise her so I decided to just pop by her apartment unannounced before I headed to work that day. On that fateful day I wore a dark blue trench coat, my favorite black colored shined shoes, with an impressionable blue suit to match.

Spontaneously I also decided that bring some roses along for this journey to my beloved Anns’ place. At times I can still smell the scent of those roses even though that day is a vivid memory now. After picking up the roses I hailed a cab to head to her place.

As the cab pulled up to her building I looked out the window with a smile as I gave the cab driver his payment. Stepping out of the cab roses in hand I remember gazing up at her six-story apartment building with so much gleeful admiration. My soul filled with joyous anticipation in seeing my sweet Ann’s face, for now, it glimmered in my wonderful imagination. Still smiling I proceed forward towards my lover not thinking of the cost to my reality.

At first entering the building I began to run up the stairway like a small child coming home. Trying to reach Ann’s apartment on the 5th floor I ran up the stairs but became startled suddenly after hearing what sounded like two loud consecutive shotgun blasts. The sound of the blast was deafening and sent frightening chills up my spine.  The thought of it still haunts my mind. Soon after my ears were filled with screams. Composition broke out in the building as tenants quickly opened their doors with faces filled with bewilderment. A woman walked down the stairs slowly with a blank stare holding a shotgun.

As the turmoil ensued she passed each level of the building. Tenants hurriedly with fright closed their doors. I froze on the stairwell holding onto the railing as she slowly approached. I thought of running but fear kept me grounded as I wasn’t sure I attempted to run for my life that it would inspire her enough to perhaps shoot me too. As the thumps of her steps became ever so close I saw her shattered pale face. She looked Emotionless.

For a moment I didn’t recognize her until she reached the stairwell I was confined to. Quickly a memory flashed in my mind. I’d seen her before! She was sitting at a small table alone at the Bar that Ann I traveled to one night. That night at the Bar, the woman seemed very disturbed. She sat there in the Bar at a small table alone just crying. Occasionally she would look over at us but then quickly returned to drown out her sorrow in a bottom of booze left almost empty on the table. In the midst of my infatuation with Ann that night, I couldn’t help but slightly think of what might have brought the other woman such sorrow that would make her so distraught. At the time though we decided not to give any further direct notice of the other woman’s presence or pain as we proceeded on with our evening in delight of our own conversation.

Now, frighteningly my mind jolted back to thinking of Ann. Ann! my mind screamed aloud for her as my lips still remained silent. My fear of Ann’s well-being quickly overshadowed my despair of the woman with the shotgun that seemed to be gradually descending towards me. The woman soon reached the top of the stairwell where I was standing still against the hand rail on the third floor of Ann’s building. Her still cold eyes met mine briefly before I gazed away in disgust. She continued down the stairs walking gently down each step then abruptly stopped in front of me as I froze in horror.

In that moment time stood still and all I can remember was the sting of her words to me as she passed me by.

“I remember you…You were at that Bar with that home wrecker, laughing, and talking without a care in the world,” she said faintly.

“What home wrecker?” I asked puzzled as grief gripped my heart over the imposing uncertainty now to Ann’s safety.

I will never forget that woman’s laugh after asking her my, question. It was one of sheer resounding malicious joy. Sternly, I looked with my eyes piercing into her presence almost forgetting she still held the shotgun in hand that could blow my inquisitive head off at any time.

Reaching for her shoulder I grabbed onto her faded black jacket and in frustration shouted, “What have you done!?  What have you done to her? Looking up the stairwell I shouted, Ann!”

Her eyebrows shuffled together on her forehead as her face filled with bewilderment over my response.

Without a care, I brushed passed her taking the risk of being shot thinking of nothing but of my dear sweet Ann. I ran up the stairs to Ann’s apartment. Her door seemed to have been broken into. Soon after entering her place a consuming feeling of heartache began to pierce my soul. My only hope was that the disgruntled woman on the stairwell did not do the unthinkable by shooting my sweet lover Ann to her death.

I walked quietly into Ann’s apartment, all was silent. I realized Ann would have made herself seen and heard if she was safe. The pain of that realization ushered in more sadness as my heart began to throb racing at what I encounter next. The thought of seeing her perhaps critically wounded brought me to unspeakable distress. I steadily stepped towards her bedroom door which appeared slightly open. As I gently pushed the door open I closed my eyes as an agonizing discomfort gripped my soul. That’s when I saw her…

She was naked and exposed on the bed. Her, bare body lay hanging off the side of the bed still slightly wrapped in what now appeared as stained bloody sheets. Not too far from her still corpse was another man on his back naked and exposed. Blood was everywhere I gazed around into the fated sea of red in dismay. They both wore shock and horror on their faces as their bodies remained motionless with large bullet holes through their bloodied chests.

“Ann?” I whispered. I couldn’t believe it. Not only was I a witness to a brutal double murder but to unimaginable betrayal. My face remained stern yet, my heart sobbed in grief.

Suddenly, I heard someone rush into the apartment and into the bedroom that I remained motionless and shocked in.

“O my gosh! Bridget!” A woman that I didn’t recognize screamed peering over my shoulder.

“Bridget? Who is that?” I said puzzled.

“Her!” she pointed towards the dead still body in frustration.

“You mean Ann?”

“Who is Ann? That’s Ms. Bridget Holiday. I’m her dear family friend Madeline I was coming round to give her back her items she left at my place…But…Now she’s…She’s been shot. O’ Dear God, Bridget.” Tears filled her eyes placing her face into the palms of her hands she as she began sobbing.

In shock, I began to leave quickly with my roses still in hand ascending hurriedly down the stairwell and out the front door of my lover’s building. I continued walking up the street throwing my roses into a nearby trashcan.

Police sirens began to ring ever more loudly as they drew closer. With haste, Police cars swarmed in front of the building sirens blazing as a stream of police officers rushed into the building.

I looked back in shock and awe of what I just witnessed. All at once feelings of hurt, grief, and anger gripped my heart. I could barely speak as I proceeded to turn my head and walk with my head bent down in shame…

A few days passed before I learned the truth about what I thought to be my Dear sweet Ann. I was informed by the paper with a story entitled, “Lady Vixen Mistress Shot Dead by Wife.” My face froze as I briefly began to read the story about my mysterious deceitful lover. The blaring story read as follows…

…A woman by the name of, Ms. Bridget Holiday was shot dead in her apartment building along with her lover Mr. Kelly Pagg . Both were murdered by Mr. Kelly Pagg’s disgruntled wife, Helen Pagg. After three days of an active search by police the the murderous suspect Mrs. Helen Pragg turned herself into police confessing her crime that is supported by witnesses claims.  According to Mrs. Helen Pagg, her husband and three children were very happy until her husband began having a salacious affair with Ms. Bridget Holiday.

 Currently, Helen Pagg is being held without bail at the county jail until her arraignment in the murder of her husband Mr. Pagg and that of his mistress Ms. Bridget Holiday.In regards to Mr. Pagg and his Helen Pagg’s three children are said to be in custody of Helen Pagg’s mother at this time.

Much of the town still remain in shock over this horrfic scandlous tradgey of deciet, betrayl, and murder. Many that know of Mrs. Helen report her as being a queit, kind, sweet woman that seemed like a very loving wife and mother. “She wouldn’t hurt a fly I’m shocked.” said a nieghbor who lived next door to Mrs. Helen Pagg and her Husband for almost ten years. Her mother made a brief statement to the press that, “She…My daughter was very depressed because of her husbands affair. I couldn’t help her. She had become so cold and distant and now all their lives are destroyed.”

A close friend to Ms. Helen Holiday who did not want her full name on record stated, “Ms. Bridget Holiday was a very passionate woman who loved lots of attention. I loved her to bits but I didn’t agree with her seeing Mr. Pagg. She said she loved him and that she didn’t care he was married because she wanted what she wanted.” 

Mrs. Helen Pragg’s arraignment is scheduled …

I couldn’t read any more of the article. In reflection, I can still remember how heartache pierced my soul after reading that piece. There was no mention of me in the headline story and that I was now very thankful for. I couldn’t help but feel left out perhaps I always was. My sweet deceitful Bridget aka Ann had me believing I was the only one and now I guess I am, alive that is.

Often I ponder how much of fool I had been to love a mere illusion. Despite my anger over the deception I still believe she didn’t deserve to die in such a horrific fashion. To this day the whole terrifying event still reminds me a great deal of fire.

 

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The Cross and The Crums

The frequency of sound becomes most valuable to those who take the time to understand its purpose.

Life can be tragically beautiful. The dichotomy of the bittersweet essence of life is definitely worth summarizing into one glorious experience. It is difficult to endure unpleasant experiences as our most holy cross but it is in these moments of persecution we learn the victorious effects of divine transformation.

Each season lays down its cross of travel on a cosmic scale as well as below within our own experiences. Death loses its sting once we realize the immortality of our eternal souls. The waxing and waning of life which can often include pain and suffering all serve its purpose to either destroy us or make us stronger than ever.

We travel to one state of being to another with divine grace united with our most fervent desires we realize that we are the director of our lives. When we accept our power of being co-creators we can transform our lives. Taking the step we are guided to take can enable us to enter into our desired states in a more collaborative way.

Actions have a way of speaking volumes.

phoenix-1440452_640Rising like the phoenix from the dust and ashes of our past to unite with our preferred desired state offers an opportunity to experience victory. Yet, often it’s those pesky lingering crumbs or ashes left after we emerge from the cross to our new resurrected selves that a proper shaking off is most often in order. Shaking off every lingering energy that no longer serves us can allow us to soar above our circumstances towards a glorious existence.

Releasing the energy from our past allows us an opportunity to grow and thrive into any new beginning that is set before us. Once all past negative energy is burned away from our souls we can extend our wings with ferocity into the breeze ready to embrace all that life has to offer us.So there are distinct paths available to us to travel through life spiritual speaking whether that be a victim or victor.We can travel through life defeated or we can choose to embrace life in all its twists and turns with determination and diligence. The choice is ours.

So even in our most challenging moments of remembrance, there are set paths available for us to travel through life whether that be a victim or victor.Hence, we can journey through life defeated or we can choose to embrace life in all its twists and turns with determination and diligence. The choice is ours.

Source: Volume

 

Sweet & Tender

Tender love with care how lovely it is to share.

A lovers muse is satisfaction in that same cause a loving throb is a heartbeat away from irresistible attraction.

It is sweet centered a tender touch of the spiritual kind. That emotional tie that entangles the soul into wanting more.

That thirst for delight lingers in the mouth of those who request it. Yet, in the den of lovers fires are quenched.

If the days are long and tender love prevails then too shall the wings of angels sour even when the mountains peek and cause for delay.

Seasons chance their rebuke as summer days brings in her beauty and now…Tender true love too.

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Natty’s Rise

It wasn’t so long ago that Natty was born. She grew out of the dust and ashes of a very turbulent war-torn place. Yet, with the will and determination, Natty emerged in all her creative glory to shine her imaginative transparency onto the wanting world stage.

Every night in her dreams Natty practiced her goal of weaving her talents to perfection so like a butterfly she could become strong and courageous to navigate the world with purpose.

Finally, Natty seized her power and she didn’t have to look far for it either. For the power she discovered was within her the whole time. Now her fashionable intrigue is united with her creative power to inspire beauty to all even herself.

 

Surviving to Thriving In Life

In the midst of winter, I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.

                                                                                                                         ~ Albert Camus

Sometimes in life, we can face our bitter winter which more often than not offers a cold place of indifference that leads us to a place of despair, hard times, and often wondering what the hell is going on.

It’s on those bitterly bad days two options can appear, fight back with a will to survive or to take flight into the vicious cycle of entertaining negativity. Seems simple right? Before you think there is some source of magical negativity deflector you’ll have to find the nearest mirror and look at yourself first. We have to learn to be our own filter and deflector if we expect to rise above our winter ready to blossom when spring returns.

In this life, we have to learn to be our own filter and deflector of negativity if we expect to rise above our winter days with a determined readiness to blossom when our precious spring days return. Our hearts and inner core feelings can give us the powerful motivation needed to imagine the unseen as if it were seen and keep our hope of success alive.

Sure, thinking positive when you feel your being crushed emotionally seems bearable at first but as we often find out all that unbelievable inner self-talk fades when we don’t actually believe in our positive affirmations we are confessing over our circumstances.

Our words become empty of its formable power if they lack true authentic feelings behind them.

Therefore, we can gain bake our piloting power over our lives even when circumstances seem stacked against us. We can gain a very vibrant advantage to survive when we in love aspire to create a better outlook or vision for our outcomes. When we focus our attention on the glimmers of piercing light through the darkness it’s enough to keep us upbeat and hopeful for a brighter day and prosperous tomorrow.

It’s true Terrible things happen but when we embrace every part of our life experience as a journey and learn from every possible occurrence we can grow into from not only a surviving human being but a thriving soul.

Survive

Catapult of The Soul

 

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The death of an Action Movie Legend, Roger Moore aka 007 James Bond has passed away at age 89.

Normally, I’m not one for personal posts simply because I normally prefer to let my art speak and well let my words bleed with my emotions even if they are masked. However today I had to take the time to offer a nod of farewell to one of the most iconic actors, Roger Moore who is associated with one of my favorite movie franchises, 007.

Living 89 years is very extraordinary feet yet, still painful loss as his son reported via twitter.

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From personal experience, I know how gut-wrenching losing a father can be especially one that has been very loving and influential.

There have been many actors who have picked up the James Bond 007 agents that held the mantle of Ian Flemming’s 007 characters on the big screen. In the span of 54 years of the film’s franchise, there have been 12 James Bond actors and over 26 movies made. Roger Moore was one of the memorable James Bond 007 agents that appeared as its leading man from 1973-1985. Each added their own flare and style to the part which made the series that much more intriguing for all these decades with its fans.

Each 007 James Bond Agent added their own flare and style to the part which made the 007 series that much more intriguing for its fans which have spanned for decades on the big screen.

Each 007 film packed a lot of great action and well women of course which controversially often participated as means to end but yet offered their own sex appeal and finesse to the series.

Overall, Roger Moore was a fantastic 007 and I’m sure from family members, friends and fans he will be missed. Rest In peace Roger Moore and may your soul travel well.

Catapult

Adrift From You

The oceans know no bounds to the fury set in my heart.

I go day and night longing for your sweet embrace. My cup offering infuses me with worry that you’ll leave and never come back. Now sorrow buries me lovesick.

In my own wonderful imagination, we are united again traveling along the seasons in love. How vast is the ocean of love that set a path for victory? Adrift You render me solid grazing along the waters with delight. Thinking of you makes me strong.

My heart races forth to reunite with you again. On that great day, when we gather into company our love will shine together once more and my soul will be in heaven.